Another week is winding down. This one sure feels like it flew by. As the saying goes “the days are long but the years are short.” I can’t believe my babies are going to be 1 soon. I’m definitely having a party to celebrate but I’m not going to lie. It’s mostly going to be a celebration for me and surviving twinfancy as a single mom. And when I say single I mean, it’s all me and the kids all the time. None of my 3 have another parent so it’s all me. With a lot of help from my family. Mostly with my oldest though. I don’t think either of my parents is a big fan of the twins although my dad seems more attached than my mom for sure. I thought moving closer to where they live would mean they would visit more and it has for my dad but not my mom. She rarely comes around. I suspect that spending the first 3 weeks with me when I came home from the hospital with them turned her off to them for good. It’s funny, most everyone looks forward to the weekend but I dread them. The twins’ nanny is her M-F so weekends are hard on me. I’m running on empty and typically counting down the hours until Monday morning when she returns. I rarely leave the house but there are practical reasons for that. A) I have them on a pretty strict schedule and hate to stray from it because I’m the one who ends up suffering for it and B) the twins are so big and heavy it’s hard for me to manage them by myself (they weigh 20 lbs each) plus they are very active, especially Amelia. The weather has been crazy hot, triple digit heat all week long except for Monday. I swear, it seems like it gets hotter every summer. Which considering the state of our environment is probably true. I need to get my ass in gear and do some homework tomorrow while Tanya (the nanny) is still here so I’m not up until midnight trying to cram it all in on Sunday. The deadline for applications for the nursing program closes tomorrow to. I’m really kinda sorta hoping I don’t get selected this go-round. I’m really truly not sure I can handle it. I’d start with Dosage Calc and Pharmacology now in the fall and then the clinical program (which is very intense and has a high attrition rate) in the spring. The twins don’t even sleep through the night yet! How the hell am I going to pull off that shit?! Plus I’m basically out of financial aid so I’m sure I’ll have to beg my mom to help me just to pay tuition, no idea where I’m going to pull money out of my ass for my books. It’s my own fault though. I can’t help but be disappointed I’ve been working on my lowly ADN in Nursing for 4 years now. WTF! And I still have 4 semesters left to go. I just pray God gives me the determination, brains, and inner strength to pull this one off because Lord knows we could use the money. Not so much the twins but for my Santiago who didn’t come to me with his own inheritance. Especially since I want my hito to go a private school when he starts school next year. None of this public school APS 57% dropout rate bullshit. I want my baby to excel and develop the brains his mama passed down to him!! Emiliano got his top right tooth today; Amelia is ahead of him on everything, I’m happy to see him get something before her. Although it’s probably to better defend himself against her, she’s mean! She and Santiago are going to butt heads, big time! He’s been miserable though so I’m sure I’m in for a long night. Amelia was really cranky at bedtime tonight too, although she seems to have a bit of a cold (allergies maybe?) and I’m already on guard for another ear infection. Maybe she’s working on that same tooth he just got. Or it could be that nasty diaper rash she’s got. Looks like something she ate got the better of her backside. Oh well, better take my ass to bed, I’m sure they will be awake soon *sigh*
Maybe if I put it in writing I’ll actually be more committed to it so here goes: I WILL go the gym tomorrow and complete my W4D3 of C25K!!!!!
Sounds like quite the backstory is coming. I'm interested in reading it. Sounds like you also have a ton on your plate.
ReplyDeleteFor the diaper rash, I use either triple paste or a homemade recipe that I have. Mix equal parts of desitin max (40%) with hydrocortizone cream (target's brand works great, don't use walmart's though), and vaseline (I use target brand here too). Mix it up well and slather I on thick all day and night. I don't need to tell you to make sure her butt is dry before putting it on. The stuff works great in a matter of like 3 days. I hope it works for you too if you choose to give it a try.
Hope that teething keeps going smoothly and maybe more than one comes in at a time? We can only hope, right?
loved reading though. Keep it up, its amazing therapy. Even if you flip out major!!!